May 12, 2010

a bitter phase of my life!!

There is silence, regret, and fear.
Those are the feelings I have left to bare.
Alone to sit in complete sorrow
Not looking forward for tomorrow


The feeling will always be the same.
That feeling of endless shame.
It was a promise meant to be broken.
Pieces of my heart has been taken as a token.


Could this be a dream, I haven't a clue.
Nightmares of lonely nights, that could come true.
Sitting, thinking, and hoping for a way out.
Something clearer without a doubt


I'm around people but yet I am all alone.
It's like I'm living in my own time zone.
Voices speaking without faces around me.
Just erie dark shadows, is what I see


A mess of shattered images left behind.
Of a soul that was once one of a kind.
Fear of being jaded so deep,
And this feeling I am too forever keep.


I'm a girl with a big heart but in such distress.
And a hole in the heart full of emptyness.
Now a girl with a broken smile.
Who doesn't think life is worthwhile.


I wish I could make this feeling go away.
Maybe then I would be gone of my dismay.
If only I wasn't broken down I might release.
And finally with myself I could be at peace.


its a dream to me :)

Oh my life is changing everyday
Every possible way
Though my dreams, it’s never quite as it seems
Never quite as it seems

I know I felt like this before
But now I’m feeling it even more
Because it came from you

Then I open up and see
The person fumbling here is me
A different way to be

I want more, impossible to ignore
Impossible to ignore
They’ll come true, impossible not to do
Impossible not to do

Now I tell you openly
You have my heart so don’t hurt me
For what I couldn’t find

Talk to me amazing mind
So understanding and so kind
You’re everything to me

Oh my life is changing everyday
Every possible way
Though my dreams, it’s never quite as it seems
’cause you’re a dream to me
Dream to me


i cant fool myself anymore!!!!

I don't want to hide on a closet shelf
A lot of secrets about myself,
And fool myself as I come and go
Into thinking that nobody else will know
cannot hide myself from me;
I can see what others can never see;
I know what others can never know,
I cannot fool myself


the lonely me!!!

Right now I'm sitting here
Staring into space
Feeling so all alone
It's such a lonely place.

As tears begin to fill my eyes
And I begin to cry
My heart suddenly feels an emptiness inside
That here lately I just cannot seem to hide

If only you were here to hold me,
I'd feel so protected
With you being by my side.

Baby, I pray that I can
have u rightt by my side
But I will continue to look forward
Day by day...
Pray continually...
That we never, ever drift apart.




May 11, 2010

hmmm......

welll!!!!!! life goes n goes on, nomatter where u stand, what u want from it and what u dont expect!!!i feel sometimes that its playing somekind of game with me but the fun is that, it always get defeated by me!!!!! here i wud be telling how and when it happened!! so be ready for a roller coaster ride.....